Blames and Trust

So many storms happened and are still happening in my life. Often, I say to myself, “If only that happened instead of this.” and so on. I often blame myself too for what happened in my life. I have lost so much! I am no longer certain of what my future will be. Okay, I am sold out with my destiny being great and mighty, being victorious. But man! This journey is too intense for me!

So one day, I was spending time with my mentor and sister-in-Christ. I told her what I feel about the events in my life and then she rebuked me. It’s true that if only certain things happened in my life instead of the others, my life would be a little more bearable! But this is what she said: that I should stop from blaming myself with what happened and start focusing my eyes on Him. Things do not just happen for no reason, there is no coincident in Him. And by blaming myself, it’s like I do not trust God’s plan for me.

There are just things that God prefer not to tell us why He’s doing those. But one thing remains, He is after our own good. A very used (almost cliche) verse but nonetheless very true, Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Hold on to His promises, God does not lie. And He loves us so much He does not want bad things to happen to us and that is exactly why He sent His one and only Son, Jesus Christ. To save us from eternal wrath, to give us hope, and a future of eternal life! Sufferings will come but He who is in us has overcome the world.

And so, bottom line is…trust God. Instead of condemning ourselves, let’s just worship Him and praise Him all the more! We are still alive, at least wala tayo sa impyerno kung saan there’s never-ending weeping and gnashing of teeth and smell of sulfur (mind you, mabaho at masakit sobra sa ilong ng sulfur! ilang beses kaya ako nakalanghap nun sa Chem lab namin!).